Thursday, March 5, 2009

All on my own

I am feeling a bit alone tonight. Johnny is on his way home to be with our other children. I am okay though. The hardest thing for me right now is missing my other children. In order to be a mom to the one, I have to neglect the other four for now....and that is not okay with me. I've always wanted to be a mom. I LOVE being a mom. Hopefully we will be able to make arrangements for the kids to come see Ben and I for at least a little while. And eventually, we hope to be ruinited as a complete family. Home truly never sounded so good.

I can't write anything without expressing my gratitude for you, our friends and family, who are supporting us at this time. You may not feel like you are doing anything but you are. Your prayers, phone calls, emails, visits to our children, etc.... they are helping us more than you will ever know. Thank you.

6 comments:

  1. I wish I could hug you right now! You are a great mom! It is reflected in all of your kids! As they say in Meet the Robinsons, "Keep Moving Forward".

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  2. Spring break is coming up. I'm sure the idea has come up, but maybe its time for a family vacation!

    If you need anything, just let us know. I've never had to be away from Tobe more than 12 or so hours at a time, and I'm not even a mom... I'm a goofy dad.

    Tobe and I continue to say our prayers together for Ben every morning and night that I am home.

    Dustin, Camie, and Tobe

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  3. Being a mom is sometimes so hard.. I wish there was something I could do for you. You are such a great mom, and I know your kids would say so too. I hope that things will work out, the way we all are praying for them to. Just remember that when the savior suffered he not only felt what Ben is going through but what you are felling as well. There is no other person that can understand more than he can, and I know he is with you and your family right now.

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  4. I cannot imagine how hard it is for you to have your heart torn between two places. I know how much you love being a mom and love having the kids right there with you all of the time....we were always kind of crazy that way weren't we???? I miss you and I am praying for you. Hang in there! I'll call you tomorrow. Goodnight.....

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  5. I can empathize with you 100%, as I have been in your situation. It IS very difficult, especially when you are there alone with your child spending every waking moment by their bedside, and then when you're left alone with your thoughts, it can get even worse. Just remember that we are all there with you, giving you hugs and prayers. Give Ben a kiss for us and tell him the ward is rooting for him! Let me know if your family needs anything.

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  6. What address can we use to send things to you and Ben? Anything YOU need, spiritually as well as temporally?

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