Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Cowboy Up

I've always loved this saying. I even considered putting it up on my little boys bedroom wall. Ben doesn't need it on his wall, he is truly living it. Everyone has been so amazed at how happy he always is. One of the nurses on his team asked what it would take to get Ben down. Unfortunately I've come to the conclusion that he probably has been feeling pain all along, but his personality has been masking it. The past few days he has had a hard time. Every bowel movement is excruciating for him. It took him half an hour yesterday to calm down afterwards. He cries and wants me to hold him...then he wants to lay down...then he wants to leave...he just keeps looking for something that will get him away from the pain. I feel pretty helpless because there truly is nothing I can do. They have been offering oral pain meds but he is usually past the pain by the time they would kick in. After 30 minutes screaming and crying last night they now are giving him morphine through his IV instead. Tomorrow morning they are planning to do a CT to see if they can see anything going on that needs to be addressed. (beyond the pain meds and antibiotics) Hopefully all will be well. Hopefully his white blood cells will recover soon and his body can start to heal. In the meantime, he smiles, plays, and blows kisses to everyone between bouts of pain. What an amazing little boy he is!

3 comments:

  1. He is an example to all of us! Give him a kiss from the Cooks.

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  2. Poor Ben. I cannot begin to imagine how painful for him to go through, and for you to have to watch him go through it...... Hang in there!!! Your hugs and kisses are probably more powerful to him than any pain meds or antibiotics. You and Ben are quite a team!!!!!

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  3. Amazing indeed!

    Without getting too gross, a bowl movement is one of my more enjoyable times of the day...

    I know TMI.

    But its the little things that count. When Ben gets over this and is all better, you'll be able to recall those times when the simplest of things were quiet complicated.

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